Crystal heard a what?!?!

"Is everything ok down there?!? Uh, I don't know, you tell me, you're the one holding the speck."- Horton hears a who.

Me of course being the speck!
Often I wonder- how do I know when God is speaking to me?!?! I pray for everything and it seems as though I never hear ANYTHING. God is so big and we are so tiny in comparison, so how does he hear us? We are all fighting for his ear, all of our prayers are rushing in at the same time, fighting for the FIRST SPOT IN LINE, how does he not answer my request with some others answer?!? When you sit back and think about how truly amazing it is that he takes such care in the answer he gives to each and every one of his people, it is quiet humbling. Who am I to be answered first, what have I done to even deserve what has been given to me?!? I am beyond honored. Three tasks at once gets overwhelming, juggling all that there is to do in a day and people calling on you while in the midst of it all, can make a person...(ME) go insane.
Have I said how thankful I am that I don't serve another me?!?!

Every prayer that has ever been lifted from my lips to God's ear has been answered... Maybe not in the shake and bake time I expected, but just when it was the absolute perfect time. I depend on him and he is there. At times I feel like a little child pitching a temper tantrum because after all, isn't it MY TURN NOW?!?! I recently read a blog entry from one of my friends and she was discussing the time that God gives us versus the time we give him...I am always asking, asking AND receiving, depending on God when there is nothing else, crying out to him- and he NEVER FAILS ME, he is always there to comfort me and give me hope when I just KNOW that my world is coming to an end. Which got me to thinking... What do I bring to our relationship?!? hmmm, well lets see- that would be a big fat NOTHING. As I was reading this entry- I heard the biggest horn go off in my heart, well, maybe not a horn- but it was the only thing I could think of that is loud and it was LOUD. I don't treat any other relationship in my life like I do the one between myself and God, I KNOW that I have to give to others that I am in a relationship with. I am so comfortable in the fact that God will always be there for me, that I lose track of the "ok, now its your turn to do something" part of our relationship- because I know that he doesn't expect it from me. I don't want to take advantage of the greatness that is He. My heart is so thankful that he is gracious to love me, to turn the other cheek so many times, that he never thinks less of me and loves me only more...

Now, that I have heard...I must do. Easy as it sounds, I am selfish but I am also determined.