living from the inside out.

obviously the night time blog in fact did not happen, once i got the kiddo to bed, took a shower, cleaned up a bit i was ready to sit down, watch some t.v., and work on my pictures for project life because as you know i am so far behind, and i'm just itching to get them done. we woke up to a blanket of white this morning about one and a half inches, although-thankfully by this point and time it is quickly melting. it has been one heck of a winter and i don't think i know one person who isn't ready to smell spring in the air. don't get me wrong, i love the snow, i love getting the opportunity to play in it with the kiddo and definitely loving all the picture opportunities that the said snow brings- but we have had our fair share of it and i have had it up to here (hand over head) with the ick.

tuesday night was movie night for me and the hubby- love those nights. i look very forward to tuesdays every week- it's the night of the new releases. we have several different moving renting options up here- we usually try to hit the blockbuster express or redbox, but if for some reason they don't have them we have a couple $dollar a night rental places and then the local grocery store so we pretty much are guaranteed a new release every week if there is one we want to see, obviously. this week was a double header with 'it's kind of a funny story' and 'my soul to take.' both were great movies, which made for an even greater night. out of the two 'my soul to take' was probably my pick- if you know me at all you know i love a good thriller/suspense type movie and i would be comfortable saying that it was that genre, it started off wham bang. 'it's kind of a funny story' although a really good drama (with some funny parts) left me wanting a bit more in depth drama. at least that was my take on it. wednesday we spent most of the day hanging out with daddy at work then home to cook up some dinner and give out some hair cuts- nothing spectacular, except for the project life being delivered, of course. thursday, this day, is a stay at home kinda day, with the snow etc...i am diligently working on my pictures because i REALLY want to get my order in today. once daddy gets home we are heading out to do a little shopping, i'm excited, lol- it doesn't take much.

i'm not much for resolutions and anyway it's a little too late for all of that- but i do have something to share and in part i'm kinda embarrassed to share it, you will see why. about a year or so ago my husband and i started the p90x program and we did it whole-heartedly everyday just like the program said although we changed our eating habits we didn't change them the way they should. well, after our ninety day journey with the workout program and a great deal of weight loss- we stopped. yes, you read right- just stopped. why? you might ask and the answer to that would be i just really don't have one, it' just doesn't make sense. why would someone work that hard to just get to, not even where they would love to be and stop? well your guess would be as good as mine. i could come up with a million different excuses, like for instance, life happened, change happened, we ran out of time, other things took priority, yadda yadda yadda. in all honesty when i think about it now and thinking about it prior it kinda makes me sick to my stomach. if you know anything about the program you know that it kicks you in the arse and that is not a lie. recently, i took a look at my life and my days and myself in the mirror and have made some changes. the excuse that i dont have time just doesnt cut it because the truth of the matter is, i do have the time, i just have to make the time. i am a very busy person but there are times that i just waste my time and instead of wasting it i am making use of it and taking that time and working out everyday- p90x style. i'm so disheartened to know that i once has come far and by now could have been farther along, but we all know that we can't go and undo the past, whats done is done and today is the change for tomorrow. so as of monday of this week i started a work out jouney. and not just working out but eating better also, i want the maximun results. i am not unhappy with me, but lets just be honest here, there are days when i feel frumpy and down in the dumps and i really do wanna look better for myself and for my hubby. as far as my eating goes, i am taking it slow steps. for about 6 months we have drank nothing but diet drinks- no regular and that does help, but i am trying HARD to incorporate more water into this diet, we cook at home and my portion sizes are getting smaller, i have exchanged all my yummy gummys, cake and chips for apples, grapes, cucumbers, whole wheat crackers etc...and as strange as it sounds i am trying to eat more, you heard right...eat more meals. i am one of those people who can not eat breakfast or lunch but come dinner time i am ready to tear something up and then of course gotta have those late night snacks (of which i p90x'd out, lol). everyday i eat something for breakfast (which i am learning to like doing), snack, lunch, snack(maybe), dinner and another small something before bed. i am ready for a life changer, i was then and i didn't hold to it, but this time i am, i am going to do it and stick with it. not only do i want to live rather than eat my way to death, lol- i want my son to be healthy and know that it's a good FUN thing to do an important one that i have neglected and am so ashamed of myself, you really have NO idea. i was embarrassed to admit that, but by doing so I hope to hold myself accountable (in addition to my hubby holding me accountable- he started last week, btw) and keep this commitment to myself because it is REALLY important to me. i'm sore and i love it, lol- it really makes me feel so much better, i am really excited about it. i just have to believe in myself- easier said than done, but i'm all about changing me, inside and out, daily.

have a lovely day-tata for now.